while walking around the guardian of heartland mall today, i knocked loose a piece of plastic that sent a whole tower of water bottles tumbling to the floor, in slow mo. when i told my mum i always wanted to do something like that, she stopped laughing. i swear, it was accidental.

and yes, randomly carrying an umbrella along the street can cause some bad karma. i was feeling very hot walking to the salsa place, so mr big foot whisked out an umbrella and started to shelter me along the way. i thought, alright, since we were in auntie territory (chinatown) i can maybe trade some inborn elegance for a cosier walk just this once. unfortunately the umbrella lasted less than one minute. the ladies of the two young couples we passed along the way looked far too displeased at the fact that their men were not similarly being aunties.

i ate snail yesterday...it felt like snail, and not for the fainthearted.

something did work, and my boss was happy. but then a whole slew of other things didn't work after that, and so we're back to the grumps.

ANYWAY, je vais au sweden!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

gime a FIVE! i am in high spirits. and i am going to eat french food tmw. life is good!

the situation at myanmar is very scary. did u guys read about (and see the pictures of) that singaporean guy who got shot at by the junta on his way to work?? i hope the violence will end soon. Not just for the sake of the people there. all that pressure on our leaders. esp with singapore chairing ASEAN this year.. i hope we show some good leadership now, but it's gonna be hard either way.

why does NOTHING work in my experiments?
why why why?

AH!

good, i need more of such emotion. i need to get emotional about my lovely experiments, yes.

ya, it's time to get down to apps again...tt's why i'm blogging.

i just had an enlightenment of sorts. it's a legacy from toes
(even though the time was short i learnt something useful from it)
that it's okay to find out i'm not good enough
as long as i try harder to be
and try and try and try and try
until i become 'good enough' (not yet)
or just, better than before

it's important.
maybe i didn't just learn this, but it got slapped across my face by new hands. big hands.
lol.

the law musical was a very very very very very very very good amateur performance. i'm so impressed. go evil twinning!

gei wo!!!

i like your blog, xs. i esp like the word skulduggery on it, cos it sounds so dam funny.
and i like the way you described your life. cos i feel the same, except that maybe mine doesn't look so calm on the outside. it just looks exciting, and fun, and hectic, and...
sigh...
but i feel like screaming again...
want to tell A than he is being really stupid. and X not to be sad. and Ts that I regret it so so much. and to myself, gawd just snap out of it. I want to scream...it's not all good, so don't really ask me that question now. hai. sigh and sigh again. i feel like a net of marbles that need to go somewhere. don't like feeling like marbles...
so i'll just let the feeling pass...pass pass pass!

if you pray, please pray for my pi's baby who has a hole in his heart.

i was super stressed out about lab lately, but maybe it's just pms. hahaha.
wow, i'm so busy. i didn't expect to be, but work turned out to be interesting so i don't really mind..
first salsa lesson tmw...hope i'll learn sth new.
and a 4hr badminton session in the morn- looking forward to that!
chinatown for lunch. wana go back to that ah balling place to eat ah balling. yum...last time i went there was with bliau. i think the picture he took that day is still his msn pic, last i noticed...
been having cravings recently, wonder why.

no, i am not, and you deserve a slap.

hai, am sighing for no good reason, just the same old ones...
hai, so annoying...

and i'm 22. i'm not just older but i feel older.

nothing like timeout with a friend.

heh heh. yesterday, i spent the entire day writing mini med school application essays. write write write. eyes so tired, brain so dead. went upstairs to complain to my sister, plonked down on her bed and was like omg i'm so sick of writing stupid essays! and she was like, aiya, relax for awhile loh, you know, think about the future, what you're going to do etc...and i was like, omg, can't believe u just said that to me when i've been writing about those same things the entire g-d day...

anyway, i've been feeling a lot better. wanted to re-streak my hair black, but my hairdresser's closed on sunday. aiya, hairdressers should not close on sundays! it's the best day to be open! gah......no business sense...ok la. she has 3 daughters, maybe she wants to spend time with them.

back to apps.

omg, i can't stand emo in blogs, and here i am doing it. couldn't help it! i felt terrible! but now i'm better. cos i'm busy...and stressed out about why I still haven't completed my med school apps and how it is my fault and completely out of character for me to lose control of the situation. Man, I totally did myself in by not submitting the apps earlier! agh! yuck. disgusted with myself.