Life and Shares

My latest (second) foray into the stock market has been unprofitable. To be exact, my nett loss is now at -1,131.35, and it's certain to get worse come opening of SGX on Tuesday.

Still, I'm thinking of pumping some more money in. After all, what can I do with my money now? Even if I lose everything, it won't be a great amount. And I asked myself how bad I would feel if I became penniless...interestingly, I decided I would not be too bothered. Because my earning power will only grow and not wane. And all the money I have (lose?) now would be insignificant in retrospect. As long as I don't put in more than I have and end up in debt, I'll be fine. I have a steady income that I can live on. I'll view my portfolio as a long term investment and my losses as paper loss.

Too bad my capital is limited. I think I can only buy one more lot of a chosen share. Got to choose carefully. Blue chips only.

Apart from starting to play the market, I've also been kept busy in lab. I like having too many things to do so that I will always have a plan of what I have to do next. This sort of gives me purpose and motivation, and well, momentum I guess. But I also feel a bit stressed now, because I have to outperform quite a smart FYP student in my lab who is super hardworking and quite efficient in his labwork. I mean, after all I am an RA, he is a student, how can I perform below his standard? Therefore I am pushed to work harder too. But it can be stressful at times.

I wish I would get a reply from the med schl soon. I am getting anxious about my application. Why haven't they asked me for an interview yet? Would something unexpected happen, for eg, would I NOT be accepted into the program??? Would I not be able to get a scholarship because of the upcoming global recession??? I am so worried. I wish I can resolve all these worries once and for all.

Presence

I am so glad I did not choose to spend the next 5 years overseas. Cos my presence, its making a huge difference.

Drug fail

The drug I am testing against CML is lousy. Don't think it will ever make it to the market, at least not in its current form. I guess that's how it is usually, anyway. On a brighter note, I may have stumbled onto a controversial mechanism of action of the drug, which is contrary to what has been published in Cell in 2006. Haha, if it turns out to be true, GO ME and FAIL CELL!

(yeah...wait long long la. Still testing the hypothesis anyway.)

October is Rosary month

There is a bunch of people, like fifteen, chanting in my living room. My dad and mum are in it. Really looks and sounds like a cult. I'm in my room now, having entered the house via the backdoor and putting food in a bowl so I can eat in my room. All I can hear from here is a rhythmic "Pray for us........Pray for us.........Pray for us.........."

-_-