Life and Shares

My latest (second) foray into the stock market has been unprofitable. To be exact, my nett loss is now at -1,131.35, and it's certain to get worse come opening of SGX on Tuesday.

Still, I'm thinking of pumping some more money in. After all, what can I do with my money now? Even if I lose everything, it won't be a great amount. And I asked myself how bad I would feel if I became penniless...interestingly, I decided I would not be too bothered. Because my earning power will only grow and not wane. And all the money I have (lose?) now would be insignificant in retrospect. As long as I don't put in more than I have and end up in debt, I'll be fine. I have a steady income that I can live on. I'll view my portfolio as a long term investment and my losses as paper loss.

Too bad my capital is limited. I think I can only buy one more lot of a chosen share. Got to choose carefully. Blue chips only.

Apart from starting to play the market, I've also been kept busy in lab. I like having too many things to do so that I will always have a plan of what I have to do next. This sort of gives me purpose and motivation, and well, momentum I guess. But I also feel a bit stressed now, because I have to outperform quite a smart FYP student in my lab who is super hardworking and quite efficient in his labwork. I mean, after all I am an RA, he is a student, how can I perform below his standard? Therefore I am pushed to work harder too. But it can be stressful at times.

I wish I would get a reply from the med schl soon. I am getting anxious about my application. Why haven't they asked me for an interview yet? Would something unexpected happen, for eg, would I NOT be accepted into the program??? Would I not be able to get a scholarship because of the upcoming global recession??? I am so worried. I wish I can resolve all these worries once and for all.