Saturday, April 12, 2008
Wednesday, April 9, 2008
it's the time of day again, when i've read all there is to read online and my experiment is running and i'm basically not really doing anything much but daydream.
It feels really good to throw in the towel and stop all the nonsense about med school. My reasons for wanting to pursue a medical degree were not pure, and perhaps it showed in my attitude, and my interviewers were unconvinced when I stared them in the eye and said what I thought would get me in. I remain certain though that with the right passion and motivations you can achieve whatever you want in life.
Perhaps it is for the best that I don't go to med school now.
Sure, I want to save lives, and touch one person at a time like Patch Adams. But other less noble reasons remain, they lurk in the background of my vision.
I am thinking of doing chemical biology at scripps. That's what scripps is known for and i don't see the point of specializing in something they're not good at. It's a waste of my time. Plus I want to do something useful when I come back to sg. The govt did quite a good job at fostering a sense of belonging in me. Because i really want to come back and serve and i am proud of my country.
I've been thinking about investing in stocks for quite some time now. I know i'm pretty behind compared to some of my peers in this area, but it's never too late to start. The stock market is where the money is. Money buys education. And many many many other things.
It feels really good to throw in the towel and stop all the nonsense about med school. My reasons for wanting to pursue a medical degree were not pure, and perhaps it showed in my attitude, and my interviewers were unconvinced when I stared them in the eye and said what I thought would get me in. I remain certain though that with the right passion and motivations you can achieve whatever you want in life.
Perhaps it is for the best that I don't go to med school now.
Sure, I want to save lives, and touch one person at a time like Patch Adams. But other less noble reasons remain, they lurk in the background of my vision.
I am thinking of doing chemical biology at scripps. That's what scripps is known for and i don't see the point of specializing in something they're not good at. It's a waste of my time. Plus I want to do something useful when I come back to sg. The govt did quite a good job at fostering a sense of belonging in me. Because i really want to come back and serve and i am proud of my country.
I've been thinking about investing in stocks for quite some time now. I know i'm pretty behind compared to some of my peers in this area, but it's never too late to start. The stock market is where the money is. Money buys education. And many many many other things.
Monday, April 7, 2008
Thursday, April 3, 2008
I wouldn't say today was a fantastic day, but it was alright. At least I managed to get the right number of people for karaoke (6). It wasn't hard per se, but frankly, I have been rejected so many times it gets demoralizing. But I tell myself, you just have to ask the right people for the right events. It would help if I were a little more charismatic.
At the corporate planning seminar today I met B again and said a quick and very cheery hi. I still feel awkward around him as though I am guilty of something and it feels horrid, but then on the outside I show nonchalance and overenthusiasm. I felt really bad because I was with the loris and my overenthusiasm was directed towards loris. It is funny when you think back on your reactions to a situation because they turn out to be so dumb, but argh, that's the way it happened and too bad about that. I didn't mean to overlook anybody's feelings and I hope my bad gutfeel about this is unfounded. I'm just too self-conscious and it backfires. hai. oh well. pee adopted the right strategy with me, it's best not to cross paths at all.
I met rachie-barney today and she is very nice, like a typical christian girl. perhaps i even found another badminton kaki.
I poked loris a little too hard while dinnering w her though, and he got angry for about 5 minutes. love my loris. someone remind me not to take advantage of him. cos it is totally in my nature to.
i'm really happy that through unforseen and unknown means i've suddenly got back a friend that i actually really cherish even though i'm not very good at expressing this in a way that is immediately visible, or even tangible you might say, which kind of makes my friendship worth peanuts (if friendship is only about flowy emotions and hugs and regular confidences)but well, i like to think, that in my own way, i do give a bit from time to time, and my thoughts are w you more often than you know.
that's it for tonight, that is about up to the max for my mush-o-meter. If only my parents could understand. They would feel like they had failed less.
At the corporate planning seminar today I met B again and said a quick and very cheery hi. I still feel awkward around him as though I am guilty of something and it feels horrid, but then on the outside I show nonchalance and overenthusiasm. I felt really bad because I was with the loris and my overenthusiasm was directed towards loris. It is funny when you think back on your reactions to a situation because they turn out to be so dumb, but argh, that's the way it happened and too bad about that. I didn't mean to overlook anybody's feelings and I hope my bad gutfeel about this is unfounded. I'm just too self-conscious and it backfires. hai. oh well. pee adopted the right strategy with me, it's best not to cross paths at all.
I met rachie-barney today and she is very nice, like a typical christian girl. perhaps i even found another badminton kaki.
I poked loris a little too hard while dinnering w her though, and he got angry for about 5 minutes. love my loris. someone remind me not to take advantage of him. cos it is totally in my nature to.
i'm really happy that through unforseen and unknown means i've suddenly got back a friend that i actually really cherish even though i'm not very good at expressing this in a way that is immediately visible, or even tangible you might say, which kind of makes my friendship worth peanuts (if friendship is only about flowy emotions and hugs and regular confidences)but well, i like to think, that in my own way, i do give a bit from time to time, and my thoughts are w you more often than you know.
that's it for tonight, that is about up to the max for my mush-o-meter. If only my parents could understand. They would feel like they had failed less.
Tuesday, April 1, 2008
sms from dad:
Got you a snauser puppy! Very cut call her loof-loof. Deliver today By 2pm. Come home early tonite to see your dog.
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1 sec after receiving the sms i Super enthusiastically called my dad to ask him Utterly seriously if he were serious:
"Are you serious???"
dad: "April Fool!"
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=( dam sad. 1)that i still don't have a puppy 2)that i actually fell for it.
beware y'all. It is April Fools' Day.
Got you a snauser puppy! Very cut call her loof-loof. Deliver today By 2pm. Come home early tonite to see your dog.
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1 sec after receiving the sms i Super enthusiastically called my dad to ask him Utterly seriously if he were serious:
"Are you serious???"
dad: "April Fool!"
-----
=( dam sad. 1)that i still don't have a puppy 2)that i actually fell for it.
beware y'all. It is April Fools' Day.
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