I wouldn't say today was a fantastic day, but it was alright. At least I managed to get the right number of people for karaoke (6). It wasn't hard per se, but frankly, I have been rejected so many times it gets demoralizing. But I tell myself, you just have to ask the right people for the right events. It would help if I were a little more charismatic.

At the corporate planning seminar today I met B again and said a quick and very cheery hi. I still feel awkward around him as though I am guilty of something and it feels horrid, but then on the outside I show nonchalance and overenthusiasm. I felt really bad because I was with the loris and my overenthusiasm was directed towards loris. It is funny when you think back on your reactions to a situation because they turn out to be so dumb, but argh, that's the way it happened and too bad about that. I didn't mean to overlook anybody's feelings and I hope my bad gutfeel about this is unfounded. I'm just too self-conscious and it backfires. hai. oh well. pee adopted the right strategy with me, it's best not to cross paths at all.

I met rachie-barney today and she is very nice, like a typical christian girl. perhaps i even found another badminton kaki.
I poked loris a little too hard while dinnering w her though, and he got angry for about 5 minutes. love my loris. someone remind me not to take advantage of him. cos it is totally in my nature to.

i'm really happy that through unforseen and unknown means i've suddenly got back a friend that i actually really cherish even though i'm not very good at expressing this in a way that is immediately visible, or even tangible you might say, which kind of makes my friendship worth peanuts (if friendship is only about flowy emotions and hugs and regular confidences)but well, i like to think, that in my own way, i do give a bit from time to time, and my thoughts are w you more often than you know.

that's it for tonight, that is about up to the max for my mush-o-meter. If only my parents could understand. They would feel like they had failed less.