omg, i can't stand emo in blogs, and here i am doing it. couldn't help it! i felt terrible! but now i'm better. cos i'm busy...and stressed out about why I still haven't completed my med school apps and how it is my fault and completely out of character for me to lose control of the situation. Man, I totally did myself in by not submitting the apps earlier! agh! yuck. disgusted with myself.