i'm learning a lot of things from mr loris who surprises me sometimes with his wisdom. for example, it is so clear to him what is important in life. The safety and happiness of his family, to have someone he loves to share his every day with, and finally, his career, which I found to include a grander vision than just money or status. i've said before that i can only like guys who are admirable or respectable in some way. There were only two before mr loris who made me feel that way. P exuded a confidence that made me believe he was a born leader. Which girl can resist a guy who leads, and does so with humility? Then, Toes. Regrettably, toes was not my second bf. In fact, we only had 3 months to develop our relationship and then he had to leave. Our paths will probably not cross until much later in our working years. I admired him because of his family background and knowledge of current affairs and cultural issues. I guess I was blinded by the sheer absurdity of it all, that I, an average person, could ever get so close to someone born into a life of privilege. I guess it is wrong to approach the relationship from this angle. Perhaps it is also why things never worked out. But for mr loris it's different. Slowly but surely he proves to me that he is someone worthy of my love...but not in ways I could have fathomed from the start.