All three md/phd programs put me on the waitlist, and wrote me nice emails about how there are too many qualified applicants and it's not my fault, etc etc, but bottomline is, they don't want me bad enough to give me the scholarship straight out, which kinda sucks.

The two grad schools I am seriously considering now are Scripps and Rockefeller. They're both more like research institutes than universities, and apparently the main thing they themselves think they're lacking is the student community in a university setting. But I somehow don't mind, which could be a result of my antisocial nature and the need to be alone most of the time.

I even feel like skipping the social interaction tonight and just settling dinner by myself in the hotel room, and getting an early rest. I wish socializing could always wait till I'm in the mood, but there's no such thing in the real world is there...
lol. As a result, I've grown quite adept at 'tricking' people into thinking I'm actually more interested in them than I am, but that, unfortunately, lasts for only about 30 minutes, then I just heck-care liao.

you know, I hate it when people raise their voice at each other. I hate it even more when people raise their voice at me. Above all, what is to me a Repulsively FATAL flaw is when they think it is okay to raise their voice at me in public. You can break it down in so many ways. There could be so many reasons why such a thing bothers me so much. But I think if you break it down to the simplest component, its rarest form, it is because I despise the lack of control of one's own actions. It's a signal that the mind is weak, and I don't tolerate that very well.